Not so long ago, I had a full time, well paying job, was free of family responsibilities and commitments, holiday meant relaxing at home and eating mom made food and going out with friends and not to forget shopping. I felt I was one in a million then.
But all of a sudden, things are different now. I don't have a job, I have to cook and look after my house and dear husband, holidays are still fun but I miss mom made food, friends are too far away to meet, shopping still continues but it is mostly for the house. Today, I feel lost in the Indian diaspora.
This was quite frustrating earlier but not anymore. Today, I am much more happier and all for the same reason - feeling lost in the Indian diaspora.
With no job on hand, I have a lot more time for myself now. It is like having extra 15 to 17 hours a day. This extra time has given me an opportunity to know myself better.
I recently took charge of the canvas and the brush. I loved to paint as a child but couldn't persue the same. It really feels great to do something that connects me to my childhood, brings out the real me and express myself through colours. As I painted, I met the otherside of me.
I never realised being out of job and different from 'the modern, independent girl' could be so satisfying and rewarding. Today, I see a lot many ways opening up for me, a lot many opportunities coming my way. Staying at home, spending time on myself allows me to follow my heart and frees me from all obligations.
It is like living a dream and I now know that it all happens for good.
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
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